Rough Week? Me too...

This week has been a bit of a battle for me. In a few days 3 big things are happening: my brother graduates from high school (WOO!), I get my 6-month checkup to see if the tumor has grown back, AND it will be the last weekend of living in my childhood home before my parents move to another state. And to boot, I have a gnarly midterm right before I drive back home. WHOA.

Last night I was so overwhelmed I was in tears. Fear, doubt, worry, and stress gripped my throat and head and heart until I felt close to suffocating. Anyone else ever have those times? Where it's all beating down on you all at once? You feel surrounded and helpless and just powerless to do anything to change the situation.

The thing is, stuff like this brings me straight to my knees. I am fully humbled because I literally AM powerless. There's absolutely nothing I can do but draw strength from the never-ending Well.

It took me three days of struggling on my own to finally admit I needed some help (anyone else have an issue with pride too?🙄) So I plugged in some worship music (Here Now by @hillsong), grabbed a handful of chocolate chips, and just sat and listened and let myself be filled up. The tension released. My eyes dried. The anxiety dispersed. Wow the power of a few moments to just BE with Jesus.

I so quickly forget the peace that is literally always available to me, and I have a feeling I might not be the only one! So my challenge for you (and me!) today is to lay down the pride, admit you need some help, and let yourself be filled back up. And a verse from my sweet roommate, Lauren, to wrap things up.

“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3

I pray that in the name of Jesus, fear and anxiety would bow and crumble. I pray that they be replaced by PEACE and COMFORT. Amen.